#HonestArt

8:01 pm – 20 minute free-writing, 5-minute editing
So, I made the goal of drawing every day, and like I said yesterday, I am almost done all the pages in my sketchbook and my markers are getting all dried out. But it’s almost Christmas and I’m poor/frugal, and plus limitations are meant to free creativity, so … I’m just going to use whatever colours work and add to previous pages and just see what happens.

Does music count as drawing?

I decided to play the piano because I needed to find my niece’s birthday present. My mom (with dementia) & I were at the shop at the end of august and we got the perfect present, so I decided I should probably hang on to it. She agreed. And

​there it sat on my piano among various art supplies until a few weeks ago when I decided I wanted to play my piano… because I do that when I am stressed but I thought it was because of Fall/Winter chilly darkness after the time change… but I think that is merely coincidental and it is really because I have so much going on at that time and I can breath in the summer but anyway I digress, and my point was that I put the niece’s bday gift somewhere clever, but I forgot to write the post-it note to remind my future self of said cleverness.  And if we fast forward to this evening, I thought that since my piano was the cause of present displacement, then I best go and play my piano and maybe it would jog a memory… but it didn’t.  It was fun, so I kept doing it…
 
And I play this song that is my go-to for self-soothing… Pachelbel’s Canon in D or whatever because I’m shit at remembering details… but I play it over and over in different ways, especially when I am stressed and then I forget, and I just am the music. So, that’s nice.
 
Soundtrack: Pixies -- where is my mind?, Radiohead – Lotus Flower, Creep, The Numbers